As time marches on and I slowly settle into my new life, my thought process had changed. Maybe drastically, maybe slightly - but it has changed and I am encouraged by it.
My life is different now. Very different. I am learning so much about who I am and how I function. I am learning that I can be independent and survive without the assistance of anyone. That is such an incredible feeling. I can do this! I am really loving my life and all of the people in it. I am so thankful. My heart is joyful again and life is worth living even if it's not how I wanted it to turn out. I have so many different opportunities now that I did not have when I was married. They aren't drastic, life-altering opportunities but they are there and it's been a challenge to really see it I want to accept them or not.
I am anew. I am happy. I am thankful. I am happy.
I do not want my old life back. I do not want him back. I do not want to go back.
I am moving forward and have a new "friend" interest that is exciting with a ton of potential. I am moving on with my life and feel nothing but sadness for my ex and all that he faces in life now.
