Heneni

Here I am - that is what the Hebrew word "heneni" translates to. Here I am. I have been so curious and puzzled as to why I am who I am and why I am where I am. As I was driving into work this morning, I was praying and thinking and finally said "You know God, I don't want to be in control anymore." Being in control leads to stress and worry and I want to move on from that place of unfaithfulness. When God called to Abraham, he answered "Here I am." Heneni... Here I am Lord. What do you want from me.? What do you want me to do? Why is it that I am in this particular place and time? What can I do? Who do you want me to become? What do you want me to say?

Here I am, Lord. Send me. I long to be open to you and to see you move in my life. You have brought me to this place and I cry out to you HENENI!