I am 27 and for the first time in my adult life I am beginning to feel the real desire to have a children and it is very strange. I guess it might just be all of the baby mania going on around me. I have had four fairly close friends have babies recently and I can feel myself wanting what they have. Plus I am watching season 8 of "Friends" and this is the when Rachel is pregnant so of course that just adds fuel to the fire!
I have never, ever been a baby person who is eager to babysit and coo over a child. When I was in high school, I always said that I would much rather mow the lawn than babysit! Now I look forward to helping out in the nursery at church and I have even considered offering to babysit for my friends! I have never even changed a diaper and her I am willing to spend hours with the little thing and take care of his every need!? I am telling you this is not normal feelings for me!
Sure I would like to travel and see and do new things. To go on adventures and experience life in that arena. But that is not really what the desires of my true heart are. The real Bethany - the deep, deep down in side, what really matters to me Bethany is to have that family. To stay at home on Saturday mornings and make everyone breakfast. To have the family movie night with pizza and popcorn. To have a faithful, loyal, loving husband who knows that life is tough and is willing to be the true man that God has made him to be. To have birthday parties with pin-the-tail on the donkey. To have Christmases with the beautiful tree and presents and feast. To have the family vacations and picnics and Sunday school. That is really what matters to me. That is what the desires of my true heart are.
Some may say that this is too conventional or idealistic or boring. And I say so be it! I am a simple, modest, low-key person who doesn't need to have the spontaneous, adventurous lifestyle. I am more than open to it and it would be great fun, but that is not what my true desires are. It's not my goal to get stamp after stamp in my passport. To me, what matters in my life is family and loving them and cultivating an atmosphere where love abounds! That is more fullfiling to me than anything else.
1 comment:
agree. completely. :)
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