Battle

I am having to battle against some pretty strong emotions today. I just woke up this morning and felt sad. It's not an overwhelmingly sad feeling, but sad none-the-less. I just cry out to God today and ask him to be with me. I need Him and His unfailing love.

I have had a fairly good week post-divorce. All week I had a great sense of calm and freedom and at times excitement when thinking about what my future holds. One thing that I have come to terms with is the approaching holidays. My ex often worked a lot through the holiday's and I didn't get to see him much. We also didn't have huge family traditions on his side of the family. We also didn't have any traditional thing that we did as a couple. We didn't do the Christmas tree or the exchanging of presents. So I feel pretty good and confident that I will make it through the upcoming festivities. I have decided to start my own traditions and the first thing I am going to do is cook and bake a lot for Thanksgiving and buy a Christmas tree! I have a spot all picked out for it in my apartment and my sister (being the incredibly loving soul that she is) bought my my first Christmas decoration - a gold star for the top of the tree! It's perfect!